20 8 / 2012
Words can’t even describe how much I miss you..sure, its only been 2 days but I guess knowing I won’t see you for a long time is what hurts . I feel empty not being able to hear your voice or even see your face. When you left, it’s like a part of me went with you and as much as I wish I did I know I couldn’t. I have obligations and priorities to where I’m at now. You can call me crazy or tell me I’m a big baby for missing you this much already but I’m just waiting for the day it really hits and effects me. Sometimes it’s ok to cry..in this case, I’m ok with it.
19 8 / 2012
School starts In 4 days. I can’t wait, I’m almost as nervous as I am excited. The first couple of weeks will be hectic getting into the swing of things but I know it’ll all be worth while. As for today, I start working. Some part of me feels as though I might take on too much all at one with school right around the corner but you got to do what needs to be done, no questions asked.
18 8 / 2012
18 8 / 2012
Although I’m starting school in less than a week and I’m finally starting to settle In, I don’t want anything more then for my boyfriend to come back home. I hate the navy…I hate that the navy has to take away the most important thing to me. I hate that I had to watch your ship leave knowing you won’t be walking through the door tomorrow, or even the day after that.. knowing I won’t see your face In only god knows how long. I miss you like crazy and It’s unfortunate that we were ready to start our life together and get a place of our own ..but I guess that’s just bad timing. On the bright side of things, I WILL see you again and I can’t wait until you’re home. Watching you go was one of the hardest things I’ve done since the last time they took you away from me..but I’ll make it through, and so will we. That’s what you do when you really love someone.. you wait. For now, I will prepare for the worst but hope SO MUCH for the best..wish me luck.
15 8 / 2012
Here’s to me. Here’s to knowing 80% of teenagers that graduate high school take a year off and never go back, but I did. Here’s to those who keep a steady job just to make a living, because I can. Here’s to every individual who can make a difference whether you make a difference In yourself, or others, because I am. Finally, here’s to the fresh start of a new beginning…I’ll drink to that.